Lately I've been thinking that if I want to create anything valid at all, I have to let go of the hatred that I hold towards my upbringing. I'm concerned that concentrating on the things that I am passionately negative about will only hold me back. When I feel violently angry or jealous or depressed, my art is emo, but more than that, it usually sucks. I get into the zone, per se, but I don't get into the RIGHT zone. Something to work on.

Something else: it's been an uphill battle, but since high school ended two years ago, I have been all about keeping some things held within myself. I am far from an introvert, but I think I've gotten better at taking the time to meditate on some of the nore important issues that come up before speaking out. Sometimes I'm still an idiot. But at least I'm getting better at keeping my mouth shut.

Anyway. That's all for now.